Okay, really.

I know the, like, two people who read this blog don't want to hear me complain about my weight but
U GUISE.

So, I had an entry a while back stating I was 129 pounds. I realized that the scale was off by plus six pounds (whew 124 lbs thank you jesus) but let me give you a sad story.
For my birthday, I got a pair of really really stretchy super soft the-most-comfortable-pants-I-have-ever-worn-in-the-history-of-pants high waisted, skinny jeans. BDG high waisted cigarette jean from Urban Outfitters if you're interested.
Anyway. My mom actually bought them a size too big so they're even more loose and I have to pull them up all the time, which is annoying, but it makes it that much more comfortable when I sit down. Needless to say, I wear them pretty much every day that I'm not wearing a dress or skirt.
HOWEVER.
Today, I was in my bedroom, lounging before my night class (that is so fucking boring oh my gawd) and I spied two pair of pants I used to wear all the time because they fit me like a glove. I decided that I would give my Amazing Pants a rest and wear those again because because I love them.
I COULDN'T EVEN GET ONE PAIR OVER MY HIPS. The other pair made me look like a ten pound sausage in a one pound casing.
I really need to lose, like, fifteen pounds in order to fit in all my clothes again D:
I mostly blame it on my mother for being unemployed and always being at home, so I can't do my normal workout (dancing pretty much the whole time she's gone).

I am actually really disappointed in myself that I just let myself go. I know that some people will be like, "Morgan, whatever, you're still small." But I'm not small for ME. Maybe for YOU but not for me and what I was a year ago.
My goal is to fit into my size zero pants again. (By the way, if someone who is reading this and thinks that a size zero is ridiculous, it's actually not when you're my height [five feet, three inches]. It doesn't look like a zero at my height.)

I really need to lay off the mayonnaise. BUT IT'S SO DELISHUS.

Oy.

I have been ignoring my blog.

I am tired of a lot of stuff including talking about it. Especially when I finally do talk about something and then someone has a problem with that.

And I am so sick of answering the same questions over and over again because people aren't listening the first two times I say something.

Answer redundancy answer.

Anyway, here are some photos from the past month or so. I don't remember exact dates, so... deal.



This is one of my good friends, Justin. He is a Harry Potter aficionado (but I would like to point out: that tie is mine. I bought it before I realized I am totally in Hufflepuff and not Gryffindor. RIP Cedric Diggory [which, by the way, was the number one trending topic on twitter the other day. Cedric Diggory, not RIP Cedric. Parenthesis is too long now stop it Morgan]). I took this set of photos the night of my accident, just a couple hours prior to it. I had a really good time taking these. He is currently in Harry Potter-a-go-go land, meaning, the Wizarding World of Harry Potter theme park in Orlando, Florida. Come fall, he'll be moving to New York for school. I will miss him dearly.
Remember his face; he's going to be on Broadway some day.



This was also taken the night of my accident, just an hour and a half prior to it. I was driving from the Art Institute to Justin's house so we could watch the finale of Glee, which we had just missed because we were doing the photoshoot above. He took these with my camera (around ten o'clock). I think they turned out pretty swell.



My grandparents celebrated their anniversary (God, I cannot remember how many years. Fifty-five? Something like that). We went to River Oaks Country Club and my gran got a strawberry daiquiri. It would have been delicious had there been no alcohol in it.



I bought new makeup wipes, switching to an animal friendly brand called Yes To (I spoke about it in the past.. They have Yes To Carrots, Yes To Tomatoes and Yes To Cucumbers. The wipes are in the cucumber line). When I popped open the plastic cover, the sticker that covers the dispenser said this. And yes, I did smile.



My favorite cousin celebrated his twenty-fourth birthday a few weeks ago. This was the balloon my gran bought him. She's a big fan of balloons and cards. My cousin felt ridiculous taking it out to his car to take home. I have felt that same walk of embarrassment many a time.



A couple weeks ago, the sky was fucking beautiful for about three minutes. So glad my gran told me to go outside. At first I was like, "Ugh, what?" and then I saw the pink clouds. Serious cotton candy clouds, and you guys know how those are my favorite kind.


I posted a very small paragraph from something I'd been working on a while back. I wrote more and I love it. I have no idea where I'm going with it. And this is why it's been a little over a month since I've written for it; after my accident, I didn't want to do anything at all. And I still don't. I feel like I've been in the karmic shithouse for a while now, and unfortunately, it isn't a creative place for me at all.
That is all for now, maybe I will think of something later.

"Because, Blogspot, that's where they keep TEH LULZ."

I get on tumblr and then I can't get off. I just had a five hour reblog-a-thon of Glee and Harry Potter. Um. Whoops.




Miss Hitchens: You’re a good kid, Aphasia. Why did you try to rob a bank?
Aphasia: Because, Miss Hitchens, that’s where they keep the money.

Glee - 1x11 ‘Hairography’

Praise be.

This stupid car wreck stuff is finally over with.

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IT'S LIKE COOL EPILEPSY














THIS IS SPARTAAAA






PS I have forgotten how to hoola hoop. HOW SAD.

Why so serious?

Being nice feels so good.

We should all be nice more often. <3


You know who you are:

1. I think you're really cool + real. There aren't enough real people and I am so glad that I know one of them.
I knew we'd be friends since that day in dance when I saw you wearing that pink Green Day shirt with the photo of the guys on them, because I had the same one.
I care a lot about you and I worry about your happiness. I hope you're happy. I hope the best for you.

2. I think, despite your sarcasm, you're really nice. You're cool + funny + I'm glad I got to meet you.
Stay real, girl.

3. You're such a cutie. I remember meeting you in Peter Pan and I thought you were really nice (I hope you weren't just being nice to be nice + didn't secretly hate me XD ). I wish we'd gotten to know each other a little better, but it's okay.
PS, iStalk photos of you + M* and u guise make me haw haw. ♥

4. Oh, you.
You were that pretty, friendly looking girl in my geometry class. I felt like an idiot because I was in geometry with freshmen when I was a sophomore, but you made me feel better about it.
I think you're such a cool girl and I'm so so privileged to know you. I'm going to miss you so much when you leave for college, so you have to promise me you'll keep in touch + that you'll hang out with me before you leave + whenever you come home for holidays or weekends.
PS, IOU a bedazzled bra. No, I haven't forgotten. Life just gets in the way. <3

5. I miss you a lot. I think you got a lot of shi- in high school that you didn't deserve. I understood your sarcasm, and I know how nice you are under it.
You seem really happy now and I'm so glad for it. ♥

6. Guurrrlll I could not stop watching you dance at Spring Show. You have grown into your dance SO much and I am so so proud of you. If you're on dance team next year, I can't wait to watch you dance again.

7. chu funny. I think you're really inspiring for me, artistically.
I really enjoyed hanging out with you when I worked in the main office + you in the nurse's office.
PS I like your hair.

8. I remember thinking you were really cool + pretty when I was in ninth grade. I still think so, and you post such funny things on Facebook XD

9. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I wish we could have had the chance to talk when I was in HS. I remember watching you in the choir thinking you looked like the only one who cared, who wanted to be there. I admired that, because I firmly believe that you should do what you love. I see a lot of myself in you.
Don't let anyone change you or try to bring you down or tell you that you aren't good enough. It's hard to hear it, but if you don't follow your heart, I think you'll be really unhappy.
I decided to do photography and it made me happy for a while and then I realized how much I miss dance + acting. Don't let yourself miss the things you love the most.
ily + I'm really glad we bonded over Avatar. ♥

10. I think you're so beautiful. I hope you see it.
You've always been so sweet to me + I really appreciate that. There aren't enough nice people in the world and I am so glad you're one of them, because you break that "beautiful girl ugly attitude" stereotype.
I think you're so talented and have such a bright future ahead of you. I can't wait to see your name in a Broadway playbill.
Don't forget me when you're famous ;D
PS, coffee or lunch is an absolute must.

Sometimes I think thoughts.

AND TODAY, THEY ARE VERY ANGRY.